Today we had a Sun Pluto opposition in the sky (Sun in Leo/Pluto in Aquarius) and lately I’ve had a bizarre amount of Moon conjunct Pluto clients (new and old) so of course it’s got me thinking about Pluto and Pluto people and how hard it is to, well, feel so much.

And I had told my Patrons that today and tomorrow were the rough and tough days of the week, all of us under that Pluto opposition. Did you feel opposed?

For a good part of the day, everything I tried to do came to naught. I won’t go down the list. Little frustrations. Everything turned out fine but this is a critical time for the early degree Leos.

I went through it myself during the Pluto in Capricorn years along with Uranus in Aries, the two of them clobbering my Sun (and Mercury and Mars).

So I’m looking back, thinking back: what do I remember? What did I learn?

I can tell you this: I made huge sweeping changes in my life. I had to. I had no choice. Every street was a dead end and I left New York at that time with a little help from my friends (Jupiter was conjunct Moon then). I remember more of that time than I’d like to remember. I started to list some of the major events but then deleted it because there aren’t any words and it’s also a very long list. How many times can one die while still alive? (A question only a Moon Pluto person would ask, perhaps.)

I remember telling this guy, upon my return, we went for a walk and out to dinner, that I felt like a ghost after everything I’d been through. He didn’t get it and we didn’t see each other again and that night feels like a long time ago.

And as for the question: what did I learn? Truth is, I don’t think I’ve begun to unpack those years and what it all meant. But I don’t think you’re gonna feel like a ghost because I felt like a ghost. We can’t just paste a transit onto someone’s life and expect the same stuff but there are some generalities I subscribe to, some keywords that always ring true. Your life WILL change when Pluto opposes your Sun. Pluto strips away… everything. Pluto strips away everything nonessential.

How is it that I walk down these same streets once again, all these years later? These streets were/are essential. That’s how. Years ago I was a cat sitter/dog walker and I had a wonderful client with a funny little cat who used to hide and now I walk down that same street all the time once again but to go to school.

I said to one of my Astrology students the other day: Pluto doesn’t come to oppose our planets and *nothing* happens. Something happens. Many things. This is a landscape of your life situation. And it happens over YEARS.

Pluto transits are death transits. Your life won’t look the same once it’s all over. So I guess I would advise to take a look around your life and hold onto what you need to keep but the truth is it’s not us who decides. It’s Pluto. It’s life. It’s fate.

Whatever the sweeping changes are… they do have their roots in the past (the compulsion to repeat) and you’re probably in some less than stellar situations so Pluto coming to burn it all down doesn’t feel good but truly is in your best interest in a big picture of your life kinda way. And maybe what gets burned down is your sense of powerlessness or some shit you really do finally need to stop (unconsciously) repeating. I mean, how many times can you get your heart broken by the same person with a different face? Enough already, says Pluto.

Survival. I guess that’s what I learned from Pluto opposing my Sun. Not only can you survive (whether you want to or not) but that you will do new things. You will surprise yourself. Life goes on and in potentially very interesting ways. When Pluto opposed my Sun I wasn’t thinking about psychoanalysis. I was dying. Pluto moves through a part of your chart or oppresses your planets and you feel yourself dying. But maybe I always feel that way lol because I am a First House Moon Pluto conjunction!

Alright. That’s enough for now.
Keep passing the open windows xo