*+-My blog is ancient now, a relic, but new clients still find me there even though I’ve been blogging only sporadically over the last few years. I never really committed to YouTube or to any other platform other than my own. So hello if you are new here. The best […]
Aliza
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*+-I was listening to a podcast just now (I have a couple favorites) and the host was saying “self help” but what I heard was “self hate” and I thought this was funny, and this morning I exercised first thing, and there was a moment when a part of my […]
*+-Have you ever built something from nothing? I have. Over and over and over. So I’m hard at work on the book the book the book, book number three. No agent yet, but I’ll get one and we’ll find it a home. AND THEN I CAN BE AT PEACE (yes […]
*+-I don’t want to write a gloomy blog post, really I don’t, but I’ve got my eye on this Venus Saturn square (exact this week) so let’s talk a little bit about it and see if I can give it a positive spin. I mean, I gave that Mars Chiron […]
*+-It’s been three weeks. It’ll be three weeks tomorrow: the anniversary of the last time I spoke to The Good Doctor, and the weeks leading up to the last time we spoke were excruciating, and the therapy itself (nearly a year’s worth) was excruciating, and I’d be lying if I […]
*+-Not every Full Moon is a life-changer and not every Full Moon needs to be, but one thing I think is unique about this particular Full Moon is the fact that Saturn is retrograde. Usually, normally, Saturn wants to teach us, but how I’m feeling under this Full Moon is […]
*+-I identify so much with the life and death. With the life and death story, struggle. When I bleed each month (or every couple months, these days) it’s life and death that I relate to. In my own Jewish tradition, blood is life and we’re not permitted to eat it. […]
*+-I’ve been going through something the last couple of weeks, a journey of sorts, in the emotional realm (OH that’s putting it nicely) and this morning I went back to sleep after being awake and up and fine at 4:30 in the morning, but I’m so glad I went back […]
*+-It’s like an exorcism, Childbirth? It’s like everything coming out of you, violently. Everything coming out of you that NEEDS to come out, must come out. That’s what transformation (the hard transits) feels like. But the eclipses can feel like that too and we have two eclipses on the way. […]
*+-Transformation can be ugly and not everyone has the stomach for it but I kinda feel that when it’s knocking on the door, you have to answer. You can’t avoid it. Even if you don’t quite know what or which transformation it is and you might not even know for […]
*+-Under today’s Full Moon in Libra, I’m thinking about the end of love. It’s a pretty literal reading of this Full Moon but it’s what I’m feeling. Full Moon is an ending and Libra is love and there is probably a relationship leaving your life. I can relate. And just […]
*+-Grief is like heat. These days, it feels to me like heat, and I feel like it crawls on little feet, up the neck, down the neck. I know what you’re thinking: it’s a hot flash, honey. But seriously. There’s a lot of grief these days, too much, and plenty […]
*+-I keep forgetting it’s Eclipse Season. I need to stop forgetting that. This is the time of year when we can blame *everything* on the eclipses, and I’ll let you know when we need to stop doing that, and maybe that time is never. So it’s almost 9pm and I’m […]
*+-First, a story: Some years ago, I had a friend who was schizophrenic, and she would go off her medication with some regularity and would wind up back in the hospital after violent behavior. She lived in a boarding house run by a kindly woman who took in all kind […]
*+-To HEAR this blog post instead of reading it I think I might be done talking about therapy. I’m not sure. You’ll find out soon enough. After ten months of very intense work with The Good Doctor, I’m kinda questioning the value of it (normal, I know) and what should […]
*+-I associate Neptune with sadness and melancholy and that far away look you get when that sad song comes on and you need to switch it off because it’s just too much. Neptune people do that. I do that. I have to be prepared for music (and I do love […]
*+-There’s a whirlwind out there and I don’t know what it is or where it came from or if it’s your individual chart or in the collective sky or what, but there’s a whirlwind out there and maybe it’s the eclipses but they aren’t until April/May so let’s figure it […]
*+-The menstruation of mid-life, for me, has long been an underworld adventure. A trip. This one is typical and yet not so bad. Is it me? Am I reacting differently? Are those vitamins helping me out? New liquid iron supplement. My mother always said to take the B’s although sometimes […]
*+-I remember an early conversation (on zoom) that I had with my therapist. I said to him something like: I want to be fearless. I’m almost there. I’m this close. Looking back, I don’t know what I was thinking. It was a hard summer. And I was full of fear. […]
*+-I think there’s two things to do when an asshole enters (and exits) your life. You feel whatever the feelings are. Respect them. Follow them where they go. And then continue. Go on. Move on. Make progress. Back in 2020 I was dating this guy for a little while but […]
*+-Life always gets in the way of writing, but I also need a life to write, need the contrast. And one has to eat and sleep and do other things, and I’m thinking about how for the last few days I’ve been focusing not on writing but on work-work, my […]
*+-There are battles that you get tired of fighting. I can think of a few myself. It’s very Seven of Wands, Ten of Wands. Until you stop with the Wands already. You just stop. Or therapy changes your brain or something changes your brain and you stop fighting. Maybe you […]
*+-But it doesn’t really feel like trying because it’s Jupiter. There’s an ease to it, a flow, and so much more these days with Jupiter in Pisces. There’s no stop/start or overthinking or underhandedness like Jupiter in the other signs. Jupiter likes being in Pisces (they say) and I think […]
*+-A good friend of mine sent me a shidduch resume. Let me translate for you. My friend is a religious woman. That’s the word I use. She would use a different word. I also like the word pious. She’s a pious Jew and I’ve known her a long time, she’s […]