That I was walking down the street not soooo far from where I live, and it was like a scene in a Yiddish short story. A visibly Jewish man -- which is an odd phrase but sometimes I bow to contemporary convention -- was sitting on a folding chair outside a row house,...
“A little older, a little more confused.” -Dennis Hopper in The American Friend * The best thing I ever did was stop writing at the school library. I have a book to write, a deadline to meet. Grateful for that. And, early on, I thought okay I would make...
I’m thinking a lot about anger and decisions. Mars is in Gemini. We don’t know what we want exactly. We don’t know what we want, inexactly. But we yearn and our ambition is pushing us somewhere, but where. I don’t want to quit but I am...
My analyst acts like we have all the time in the world. I don’t know how old he is, but he’s older than me. Today I asked him what something meant. “Symbolically,” I said. What does it mean symbolically? And as I sit here typing to you I...
I listened to the same music over and over when I was writing my memoir (and yes I am still agent-hunting). When I listen to that music now, it takes me back to how I felt when I was writing it: intensity, hunger, longing. But the book is funny — at least one...
The transit of the moment. The least you need to know. News you can use! You may already be feeeeeeeeeling it. I AM FEELING IT. Break out the fireworks, my friends. Here we go. MARS GOES DIRECT THIS WEEK. Thursday! Today I did a long rambling storytime audio for...
More often than not, I don’t understand my own nature. I’m scared all the time *and* I do things that scare me ALL the time. And there’s lots of stuff that doesn’t scare me in the slightest and I do those things too. But it’s the fear...
We’re in the midst of a long angry slog by the name of Mars retrograde and this week we have a Full Moon in Mars Retrograde in Gemini. Where are the boundaries? What needs to be said? Gemini rules speech. Everything means something and nothing means anything....
I was sitting in class (on Zoom) thinking about emptiness which I guess makes sense with Zoom. Zoom class is there and not there, impersonal. And remembering that I need to tell you that I unpublished YEARS of blog posts. Long story. I’m not even sure where the...
After my therapy came to an end, I had a story to tell and I told it. I told it and told it and told it. I told it to the 20 or 30 therapists I interviewed in the hopes of finding him in a new form. I wanted a man. I wanted a man around my age. I wanted a man around...